Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Virginia Tech Grief Letter



I feel hurt, poignant, and angry at the very basic fact that
there is a such thing as gun that was intentionally invented
to kill, to destroy, to ruin, and to hate.

I feel hurt at the fact that we are that corrupted.
I feel hurt at the fact that lives, innocent or not innocent,
had to be lost because of a mindless action derived from
anger, from solitude, from hatred, and from stress.

Why is our world turning so rapidly against virtue,,?

I feel so guilty at the fact that I have many reasons to be joyful about at this moment
when families of lost lives have lost their
precious and beloved ones along with their reason to
smile, laugh, and be happy for.
I feel so hurt at the fact that those students could've been
walking among us, still living and breathing with their
dreams unfolded and future awaiting.
I feel so hurt that they had to go,,,just like that,,with a blow
of hatred and violence.
I deeply believe that our Heavenly Father has already
embraced them with tears and
planned eternal happiness for them that they lost in this secular world.
I pray
I pray
I pray
for those wounded souls
and for their eternal happiness.

As a Korean,
I also feel hurt at the fact that
on the tv screen anouncing such tragedy,
the Korean flag was painted red and
flying sinfully in the background.
I feel hurt at the fact that the nation Korea had to be
blamed, magnified and targeted and condemned
for a human's,
not Asian's nor Korean's,
but HUMAN's irreversible and unforgivable sin.
But that would be my secondary grief.

I also feel so hurt at the fact that
an individual was so full of anger and hatred and sorrow
that such horrible decision was made out of him.
What made him do that? What?
I despise him for his wrong, sinful, hateful, and violent decision and action and heart.
No,
I despise his sin.
I despise his way of escaping his agony and
I wish so badly for time to turn back and change what
he had done.
I wish if he had one more minute to think before such horrible and sinful massacre and


I wish if he had chosen to let go of his gun and
be saved from such sin
..be saved by God.
It was too late..

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I wish if all the souls in this world could be saved,
healed, lightened, and changed.




-Alice Won-